Everything is interconnected.

It’s just sooo weird, for four consecutive nights ‘old’ people in my life have been appearing in my dreams. And they just don’t seem to be apparition or something, the scenario is usually in the MOST unusual situation.

Tuesday - two guy friends. ayoko na ikwento. haha. :)) but hey, this is not something green or what. the first guy already knows about me and the second guy and we were actually having a good time hanging around a room in a resort, laughing and talking about things. I know they’re about to have a gig that day because I saw a guitar.

Wednesday - my tita. my tita gave birth to twins. and it was creepy I was holding one of them, and then a cat came, grabbed one of the babies. asdfghjkl.

Thursday - my highschool bestfriend abby was wtf is this, pregnant! 

Friday - I saw my first love’s name written on a paper, INEANDRO, (yay. Hahaha. i have the guts to  mention his name, but I’m happy for this person though we  never had the chance to date but my innocent high school days loved him so much, he’s going for a law degree this June.) sticked to an LPG tank that I was inspecting while my first cousin, whom I haven’t seen for like six years was looking at me.

I saw a river, I was boating. If there was some other in the boat, I don’t know. I was trying to go somewhere. and then I saw many boats, old rotten with foul smell on the river, but my view was like I was already in some upland.

I believe in dreams. Even in the Bible, God would send omens in dreams. 

I’ve seen it for my father, my sister, how dreams are sort of warnings.

I ain’t desperate. I just want this thing sooo baaad. I need it. 

I guess I’m just stuck in between leaving and getting there.

But I’ll keep on praying.

But it gets difficult everyday. I know somethings are really worth waiting for, worth praying for, worth persevering.

I won’t stop til I get it. I won’t stop. 

And in the end, I’ll still say I did it.

Basta, alam ko lang. May something, may mangyayari, pero hindi ngayon. Wait na lang muna. :))

The Lord has so much in store for me. 

Pero basta. :))) Basta. HAHAHA. :))

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When someone admits he had shortcomings. And that he wants to make it up to you for all the things you did for him and for all the time you spent with him, maybe someday when fate lets you meet again, after almost a year. 

WTF. I just don’t know what to say because I don’t pretty damn care anymore.

And that’s the good thing about me. What is over is over. Yes, I could hardly get over something, but when I do, I find no reason to look back. :)

jason mraz i wont give up mp3 | lyrics

When I look into your eyes
It’s like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well there’s so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you’ve come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

And when you’re needing your space
To do some navigating
I’ll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

‘Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We’ve got a lot to learn
God knows we’re worth it
No, I won’t give up

I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and gifts
We got yeah we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you’re still my friend at least we didn’t tend
For us to work we didn’t break, we didn’t burn
We had to learn, how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I got, and what I’m not
And who I am

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up
I’m still looking up

I won’t give up on us
God knows I’m tough, he knows
We got a lot to learn
God knows we’re worth it

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

Waaaa. Sobrang nakakakilig yung kanta. Ang sweet. :) IloveJasonMraz. :D

Feeling ko ako yung kinakantahan nya. :))

hohoho. :D

But we both know how,

How we’re gonna make it work when it hurts,

When you pick yourself up,

You get kicked to the dirt,

Trying to make it work but,

Man these times are hard,

But we’re gonna start by,

Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,

Sit talking up all night,

Doing things we haven’t for a while,

A while yeah,

We’re smiling but we’re close to tears,

Even after all these times,

We just now got the feeling that we’re meeting for the first time.

Mahal ko ang The Script. ♥

Hohoho.

I got my TIN. :)

I got my calling card.

I got my eyeglasses. 

I got cheesecaaaakes. :)

Hindi ko alam kung ako lang yung ganito. Yung maraming gusto sa buhay. After grad, pwede mo na kasi gawin lahat. 

Gusto kong mag-aral, magtravel, bumili ng puta red na Mazda2, bumili ng condo, magbasa ng libro sa hammock sa labas ng isang bahay sa tabing-dagat, maligo sa ilog, tumambay sa tahimik na lugar sa ilalim ng buwan, magkaboyfriend, magtravel kasama yung boyfriend ko, maligaw sa isang lugar na pareho naming hindi alam, magbakasyon sa amin pag free time, magmano sa mga magulang nya, ipakilala sya sa tatay at nanay ko.

HAHA.

Andami kong gusto.

Pero may mga bagay na akala mo sa una, gustung-gusto mo. Pero pag malapit mo na makuha, o kaya andun ka na, masasabi mo na lang ‘eto na yun?’

And I hate this feeling na ito kasi yung ginusto ko, bakit hindi ko mapanindigan? 

Masaya ako sa ginagawa ko, yung araw-araw na routine ko, pero at the back of my mind, there is always this idea na pwede ko namang hindi gawin e. Pwedeng tumigil ako, mag-iba ng landas.

And I guess this is the effect of some people. ;)

Gusto kong mag-aral ulit.

I don’t feel stupid i didn’t take the NMAT, I feel it’s a right thing to do. Or it wasn;t the right time to take it.

Pero I really wanna go to school again.

I want a degree in Beverage Tech. :))

Pero wala naman dito nun! At saan ako hahanap nun! haha

Gusto ko din magsettle na muna kasama family ko, pero anong trabaho makukuha ko sa Bataan? haha!

Ano na? ano na?

If there’s one break-up in my life I’ll forever grieve about, it’s yours.

Breaking up with your boyfriend/girlfriend is disastrous. 

Breaking up with your wife/husband?

I don’t know how it feels, I’ve never been married.

But from what I saw, heard and sympathized with, man, I pray it won’t happen to you.  

Great strength was needed.

To sustain what was lost, to cope up with what was gone.

And wait, I thought married couples bound by God are unbreakable?

Can’t remember when I stopped hoping and praying.

Still, thank you for bringing us to this world.

As of this post, I still grieve with how you lost your ways, your hearts.

But I hope someday you’ll find a way back to each other.

25 years ago, they made vows.

Vows to stand by each other through thick and thin.

To support in sickness and in health.

And all i can do is pray,

and promise that my future and I will go beyond 25, 50, 75.

Beyond years, beyond what love can do, where it can go, because true love never dies.

:’)

Iloveyou Pa, Ma. I miss us. :’(

Can’t remember the last time we were together.

Seryoso, theme song nila to. Haha. :)

Our hearts have been to battle 

Our souls have been to war 
We’ve lost the will to carry on, we don’t believe no more 
Wasn’t it we who said 
That this could never happen to us 
How wrong could we be cause baby here we are 

Victims of love a broken down affair 
So sad to see the debris 
Scattered everywhere 
Victims of love, I still cannot believe 
That we’re the victims of love 
That we cannot retrieve 
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/j/joe_lamont/victims_of_love.html ]
It used to be so easy, it used to be so good 
We had an understanding that got misunderstood 
I thought we were survivors and we never would go down 
But now we’re just outsiders as our love 
Comes tumbling down 

Refrain 

Bridge: 

Maybe we played it a bit too sure 
And everything was hearts and roses 
But fate stepped in and closed the door 
And we were just left standing 
And we realized the ending 
Was so near… 
Where do we go from here… 

Refrain

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/j/joe_lamont/#share

Sa hindi inaaasahang
Pagtatagpo ng mga mundo
May minsan lang na nagdugtong,
Damang dama na ang ugong nito
Di pa ba sapat ang sakit at lahat
Na hinding hindi ko ipararanas saýo
Ibinubunyag ka ng iyong matang
Sumisigaw ng pag-sinta

Ba’t ‘di pa patulan
Ang pagsuyong nagkulang
Tayong umaasang
Hilaga’t kanluran
Ikaw ang hantungan
At bilang kanlungan mo
Ako ang sasagip saýo

Saan nga ba patungo,
Nakayapak at nahihiwagaan
Ang bagyo ng tadhana ay
Dinadala ako sa init ng bisig mo
Ba’t di pa sabihin
Ang hindi mo maamin
Ipauubaya na lang ba ‘to sa hangin
‘Wag mong ikatakot
Ang bulong ng damdamin mo
Naririto ako’t nakikinig saýo

-Tadhana, Up Dharma :)

First week of April - I was devastated (after Galera. if you know what I mean. hihi)

Last week of April - I was where? Cloud nine? haha!

Kailangan ko talaga i-tumble blog to. Kasi minsan lang to. at ngayon lang to. at natutuwa ako. :D

Monday - went to FDA, Filinvest, Alabang to do something.

Tuesday - went to Valenzuela to visit a plant. And hey, I learned a lot. May kaya pa pala magmonopolize ng specific industry na local company. :) I checked the something for something.

Wednesday - I used my SAP account. Gusto kong mag slash wrist dahil hindi ko forte and IT and software na kumplikado kagaya nito. Ilang buwan na nila to ginagawa dahil hirap silang ayusin at ako, anong alam ko dito?

Thursday - went to Cabuyao to do something.

Friday - SAP meeting at di na kami gagawa nung pinapagawa. AT, AT. salamat. hoho.

Saturday - off to elbi. graduation. and yes. masaya ako pero bakit parang di ako deserving? :( </3

Sunday - went to Batangas, practiced driving with Chester then off to Manila ng hapon. We attended Mass at Padre Pio, at for the first time, I treated my family.

It was a blessed week indeed.

Sabi sa homily, God gives us the people, things and circumstances as blessings at the right time, but we tend to be choosy.

God is good, all the time. :)

Gustong matunaw ng puso ko sa sobrang panghihinayang.

May mga bagay tayong pinagsisisihan dahil ginawa natin, at meron din dahil di natin ginawa.

Nandun na ako sa harap e.

I didn’t have the courage to take their hands.

wala ng excuse yun, kahit na, mali pa rin.

When I talked to tatay earlier, he told me

‘bakit hindi ka nagmano? dapat nagmamano. sa susunod na makita mo sila humingi ka ng pasensya. sabihin mo nahihiya ka.’

yun eh kung may next time pa. T__T

at oo, kinuwento ko sa tatay ko. :)

A picture of love. Of hope. And gratitude. That day I didn’t receive any medal, any recognition. But the fact that he was watching, waiting for hours was too much. He was proud of me. 

To the man who loves me through thick and thin.

Who always inspires me a lot.

Whose practically can say his heart breaks whenever I cry.

Whose words literally stay on my mind (sometimes I tend to be paranoid)

THANK YOU.

It’s been a year after my grad day and here I am, still living with your shadows.

 Pa, wala akong ganito. Pa, hirap na ako. Pa, anong gagawin ko. And yes, i always do that to make lambing with you.

At kahit marami akong reklamo, di mo ako pinapabayaan. :’(

at ang tanging nasasabi ko lang, wag ka mag-alala pa. paglumaki sahod ko, di ka na mag-aabono. :))

Alam kong di mo mababasa to pero salamat po sa maraming taon na suporta at pag-unawa. 

We may be physically away but i know it in my heart, you always think for our best interests. Now words can explain how thankful I am, I’ve been blessed with a tatay like you. 

And I hope someday some guy like you will come to our door, asking for my hand. And I hope, his daughter will be as thankful as I am now for having him as her tatay. <3

i love you tatay. :)

I’ll always be your little girl. :) :*

(Note: 14 years lang ako, kasi hindi naman ako nagkinder. ilang buwan kasi ang tamad ko pumasok non at lagi akong umiiyak. my gahd, I still remember those daaaays. :) )

Thanks to the most generous tatay in the world! :))